For many years now I have had a love/hate relationship with my body and the weight that has piled on over the years has stubbornly refused to say goodbye. I have struggled to lose the excess weight that has weighed me down in more ways than just physically and in spite of trying diets, healthy eating and regular exercise plus help from the doctors with some special pills aimed at weight loss, the weight has stuck around.
Whilst I can’t use it as an excuse for my excess weight and the sole reason that I struggle to lose weight the PCOS I suffer from complicates my battle with my weight along with my tendency to comfort eat. When struggling emotionally and trying to keep the depression that I battled and suffered from a few years ago at bay, even though it remains a dark shadow in my mind ready to pounce on my worries and weak thoughts, in spite of knowing that it does not help and only adds to my weight worries and issues I find that I can’t stop myself from comfort eating with big portions of food.
I find myself going round in circles; the negative thoughts I have about my body and weight make me feel bad and depressed, and when I feel low and depressed I turn to food, trying to find comfort in food which in turns does not help me lose weight, instead it keeps the weight on or at times even making me pile on the pounds till I come full circle and feel bad about my body.
